How do you define love? How sure are you that one person you adore, you worship is not gonna lie to you? Does effort defines love? Does more communications defines love? What really is love?
Believe me you can't precisely define love because we experienced a different kind of love. There are good and there are bad. Pros and cons which pretty much developed us as who we are as so called a 'lover'.
But what I've been dealing is how can the sparks and chemistry disappear at a certain time? Would you just simply give up on the relationship if there's no more sparks? Is that even legit?
Frankly, what I've been going through is a confusion stage of 'why don't I feel happy like I used to?'. I'm trying to be optimistic about it but I keep getting back to the same answer. I knew the answer but I'm not sure if I would want to confront it.
Its been 2 months or so and yes still new still brand new and I've been feeling like as though there's a distant between us. I don't what else to talk about with him. I don't seem excited to get his calls or text. Its dull.
I feel like as though we're a 5 years old married couple. That's how I feel but I don't know if he feels the same.
He seems to be okay with not communicating with me as often as he do before and he seems to be okay by not seeing me. Idk prolly I think too much.
Idk why do I feel this way maybe because I've been off relationship for very long time so I tend to think more negative stuff than I should or this is really a serious matter that I should be consulting with him?
Gahhhhhh its killing me. This is the reason why I'd avoid being in a relationship because of all the confusion the alone heartache. Its so ridiculous on how I can think a certain thing and then leads to something beyond negative.
Goshhh somebody really need to sleep me on the face. But seriously I think its time for me not to put him as my top priority and focus more on developing my future career. If you ask me how much do I love him? I can't really tell. I'm still confused.
It's like I do love him but I'm terrified of the consequences. This is what happened if you loved someone so much before but it goes to waste. You're scared. You're constantly in doubt. Its tiring.
As usual I have no one I can talk to with so the next best thing to channel all my confusion is to blog about it. Hmh. For once I would like him to surprised me with something unexpected ya know? I understand that he's tired of all his work that he needs to push his ass in order to live but I feel neglected.
Like as though I'm at bottom of the list. As though I'm no longer his muse. I'm no longer the one he's excited of hearing from. I want the old him back. The one that used to make me laugh. The one that care about me. The one that made me happy.
Cause frankly nothing made me happy not even a marathon of How I Met Your Mother.
Its either he's changed or my expectation is high.
I need a miracle and an answer.
LATER~
Believe me you can't precisely define love because we experienced a different kind of love. There are good and there are bad. Pros and cons which pretty much developed us as who we are as so called a 'lover'.
But what I've been dealing is how can the sparks and chemistry disappear at a certain time? Would you just simply give up on the relationship if there's no more sparks? Is that even legit?
Frankly, what I've been going through is a confusion stage of 'why don't I feel happy like I used to?'. I'm trying to be optimistic about it but I keep getting back to the same answer. I knew the answer but I'm not sure if I would want to confront it.
Its been 2 months or so and yes still new still brand new and I've been feeling like as though there's a distant between us. I don't what else to talk about with him. I don't seem excited to get his calls or text. Its dull.
I feel like as though we're a 5 years old married couple. That's how I feel but I don't know if he feels the same.
He seems to be okay with not communicating with me as often as he do before and he seems to be okay by not seeing me. Idk prolly I think too much.
Idk why do I feel this way maybe because I've been off relationship for very long time so I tend to think more negative stuff than I should or this is really a serious matter that I should be consulting with him?
Gahhhhhh its killing me. This is the reason why I'd avoid being in a relationship because of all the confusion the alone heartache. Its so ridiculous on how I can think a certain thing and then leads to something beyond negative.
Goshhh somebody really need to sleep me on the face. But seriously I think its time for me not to put him as my top priority and focus more on developing my future career. If you ask me how much do I love him? I can't really tell. I'm still confused.
It's like I do love him but I'm terrified of the consequences. This is what happened if you loved someone so much before but it goes to waste. You're scared. You're constantly in doubt. Its tiring.
As usual I have no one I can talk to with so the next best thing to channel all my confusion is to blog about it. Hmh. For once I would like him to surprised me with something unexpected ya know? I understand that he's tired of all his work that he needs to push his ass in order to live but I feel neglected.
Like as though I'm at bottom of the list. As though I'm no longer his muse. I'm no longer the one he's excited of hearing from. I want the old him back. The one that used to make me laugh. The one that care about me. The one that made me happy.
Cause frankly nothing made me happy not even a marathon of How I Met Your Mother.
Its either he's changed or my expectation is high.
I need a miracle and an answer.
LATER~
