Make-up

"You know what’s crazy?! That some women don’t wear makeup to impress men. Some women do it because they like it. When I wear 5 different colors on my eyes with bright ass pink lipstick I KNOW that ain’t cute. But you know why I do it? Because makeup is about having fun and being artistic. I didn’t need your approval. I just think some men really need to put their egos to the side and STOP thinking that everything women do is to impress you guys."  - Anonymous 

Memories

I didn't tell any of my friends or anyone about this.
Well it's typical me for holding it in me every time I have a deep thoughts about something.

Now,
Ever since I've got that text all of sudden the stupid old memories keeps flashing back.

It suddenly appeared in my mind.
I kept remembering the painful and hurtful memories when I'm with you.

Especially the one when I fall sick because I was so upset of what happened between me and you.

I don't know how long it will take for me to finally get over it.
I'm not saying that I'm still holding on to this shit.
I'm saying that the awful memories kept haunting me.

I'm tired of seeing the same images.
I'm sick of pretending that I'm happy when obviously I was not.
I hate not telling anyone about it because I was so ashamed about it.

I just want it to end.
I want myself to be happy again with or without anyone by my side.

I hate looking myself in the mirror and start feeling sorry about myself.
I hate not having the confidence when I'm around people.
I just hate everything right now.

Maybe this is the reason why I'm always so moody lately.

Not forgiven

It's so easy for you to sent me a text message and ask for an apology.

After what you did?
Yeah of course it was like 7 8 months ago.
But you don't get it.

What I felt that time.
Even until now, how painful I feel after what you did.

I lose faith in love because of what you did.

Well yeah I guess in your logic mind it's no big of a deal.

Guess what dude?

It ain't easy for me to forgive you.
Eventually yes.
Now? I don't think so.

Forgive sounds good, but to forget what you did?
Ain't gonna happen.

And FYI,
The next time you want to ask for forgiveness better make sure you're sincere.

Revenge

So finally, after all that I finally found out that karma actually did her work to you.
But............

Why don't I feel happy about it?
I should be relieved that you're finally feeling exactly the same thing I felt.

I don't get why I don't feel happy.

Maybe I feel sorry for you.
But serves you right for doing what you did.

Of course you'll never gonna learn from the lesson but I did that is NEVER fall someone who's from that state ever again.

A mistake I should've known all along that could really hurt me.

“It’s like being out in the rain and being the only one without an umbrella. People offer you shelter but they’ll get wet too if you accept. So you say no.”