I'm trying so hard no to let this sorrow getting to me but who am I kidding right? I'm a human being I can't control every single thing not even my emotions.
So lately I've been posting severals status and tweets about being depressed and I said its about my assignments. Its all a lie. A cover for not losing my cool and fake a smile.
I'm used to it. I'm used of faking a smile or laugh than explain why I'm sad.
Seriously I don't know how to explain it. Its not that I've been avoiding of telling the truth but for me I think there's things better left unsaid. Its better to keep the mystery unfold. Well obviously its about emotions and no its has nothing got to do with the same douche.
When it comes to emotions it will related to the typical uncontrollable feelings you may or not have towards someone. In this case yes I admit it I have slightly a tiny bit crushed on someone. At first it was a wonderful steps everything was going well right after that it fumbled and now it breaks me.
Just when you thought this is the time for you to be happy after that dreadful downfall your thoughts were wrong it hits you pretty bad. I don't tell anyone because maybe its an ego thing to admit that you've been defeated again twice in a year. I don't do well with being defeated because I'm a competitive person.
To admit that you're losing is the hardest thing in the world and to show how weak you are in front of people is the most difficult part. Probably that's why I've been hiding it for this while. I mean the feelings.
Luckily this time I was aware of it that it doesn't affecting me that bad and I wasn't that attached with him so its easier for me to walk away from what ever is happening between us. Now seriously I have to stay focus with my studies otherwise the same thing will happen to me like last semester.
I did pretty bad with all of my assignments and exams because of a moron and I've become an idiot for letting it to get me. This time around I've vowed not to make the same mistakes I did. I'm much wiser now (hope so).
I learned that the more you letting it go to fly away to find its own path and pace of life the more naturally it will get to you. I've learned that you need to be faithful and stop being so hard on yourself and just live your life the fullest.
I'm hoping that everything will turn out okay.
LATER~
So lately I've been posting severals status and tweets about being depressed and I said its about my assignments. Its all a lie. A cover for not losing my cool and fake a smile.
I'm used to it. I'm used of faking a smile or laugh than explain why I'm sad.
Seriously I don't know how to explain it. Its not that I've been avoiding of telling the truth but for me I think there's things better left unsaid. Its better to keep the mystery unfold. Well obviously its about emotions and no its has nothing got to do with the same douche.
When it comes to emotions it will related to the typical uncontrollable feelings you may or not have towards someone. In this case yes I admit it I have slightly a tiny bit crushed on someone. At first it was a wonderful steps everything was going well right after that it fumbled and now it breaks me.
Just when you thought this is the time for you to be happy after that dreadful downfall your thoughts were wrong it hits you pretty bad. I don't tell anyone because maybe its an ego thing to admit that you've been defeated again twice in a year. I don't do well with being defeated because I'm a competitive person.
To admit that you're losing is the hardest thing in the world and to show how weak you are in front of people is the most difficult part. Probably that's why I've been hiding it for this while. I mean the feelings.
Luckily this time I was aware of it that it doesn't affecting me that bad and I wasn't that attached with him so its easier for me to walk away from what ever is happening between us. Now seriously I have to stay focus with my studies otherwise the same thing will happen to me like last semester.
I did pretty bad with all of my assignments and exams because of a moron and I've become an idiot for letting it to get me. This time around I've vowed not to make the same mistakes I did. I'm much wiser now (hope so).
I learned that the more you letting it go to fly away to find its own path and pace of life the more naturally it will get to you. I've learned that you need to be faithful and stop being so hard on yourself and just live your life the fullest.
I'm hoping that everything will turn out okay.
LATER~
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