Memories

I didn't tell any of my friends or anyone about this.
Well it's typical me for holding it in me every time I have a deep thoughts about something.

Now,
Ever since I've got that text all of sudden the stupid old memories keeps flashing back.

It suddenly appeared in my mind.
I kept remembering the painful and hurtful memories when I'm with you.

Especially the one when I fall sick because I was so upset of what happened between me and you.

I don't know how long it will take for me to finally get over it.
I'm not saying that I'm still holding on to this shit.
I'm saying that the awful memories kept haunting me.

I'm tired of seeing the same images.
I'm sick of pretending that I'm happy when obviously I was not.
I hate not telling anyone about it because I was so ashamed about it.

I just want it to end.
I want myself to be happy again with or without anyone by my side.

I hate looking myself in the mirror and start feeling sorry about myself.
I hate not having the confidence when I'm around people.
I just hate everything right now.

Maybe this is the reason why I'm always so moody lately.