Haunting

I know people said that in order for you to move on is to forgive what has been holding you up.

Quite frankly, it's hard.

I know I have to forgive him 

I know I have to be genuinely forgiven him.

But I can't.

What he did is unacceptable, unforgivable, and despicable.

Ever since I've received his text about how sorry he was I just can't stop thinking about the awful thing he did to me.

It is painful and I do feel like he's no sincere enough to seek for forgiveness.

Every night I think about how much it hurts me.

Every day of my life it haunts me how terrified I am to ever give someone else a chance.

I don't believe in it, I've lost my faith in it completely.

I know I have to forgive him eventually.

I want a peace of mind.

I want to be able to not being afraid again.

I'm still waiting for time to finally forgiving him.

It's hard for me to forgive him when he keeps popping out unnoticed.

Whenever I think about it it made me angry and reminiscent of the pain i felt before.