Friday, February 18, 2011

pilihan

Ramai sgt dok tanye aku aku ni memilih sangat ke nak cari laki? padahal aku bukan memilih cuma aku tak jumpa yang terbaik. yela tak kan la nak main sebat je orang yang tak kenal? lepas 2 3 bulan then break? ape gune couple kalau macamtu? ingat zaman sekola ke?

To tell you the truth la kan? aku sebenarnye tak memilih rupa ke harta ke ape ke. Biasa la aku suka bergurau cakap laki ni handsome hot dia bawak kereta ferari nak pegi mengorat tapi realitynye boleh ke semua itu memberi kebahagiaan? Aku seorang yang moderate. Seorang yang sederhana. Aku tak pernah memilih aku terima orang seadanya. Kau boleh menilai dengan tengok dengan siapa aku berkawan. Perangai macam2 ragam. Rupa paras macam2. Aku tak pernah memilih sebab itula dia warna kehidupan.

Tapi sekarang ni di sebabkan usia makin meningkat otak pun makin matang. Semestinye la aku nak kena fikirkan masa depan ye tak? No offense tapi kalau boleh aku nak someone yang ade mase depan. Mase depan terjamin. Bukannye someone yang pemalas education pun tah kemane keja pun malas tak ada usaha untuk diri sendiri. Itu yang aku sedang cari sekarang. So far aku asyik jumpa yang tak serious dengan mase depan dia. So sorry la memang cancel la.

Then di sebabkan mama aku dah buat guide list maka aku terpaksa la ikot. Katanye nak laki yang tahu agama, laki yang ade mase depan, laki yang penting kan family, dan lain2 lupe. Laki zaman sekarang ni mane nak cari yang tahu agama? Balik2 kaki club. Amik dadah. Kaki mabok. Kaki perempuan. Perosak. Pervert. Ade yang baik pun agama lintang pukang. Tanye pegi sembahyang jumaat ke tak? jawapannye telajak tido. Lepas tu kena kan aku balik. HAHA. Tapi yela biggest turnoff bile borak pasal agama dia terpinga2.

Pernah once aku borak with this one guy ttbe dia bergurau pasal puasa. Katenye dia puasa penuh even on hari raya. APEKAH? Haram kot? aku ckp "u tau tak puasa 1st day raya haram?". Rupenye tak tahu. Astaga ape nak jadi? Aku bukannye perfect sgt aku tau. Tapi sebab aku tau aku macam ni la aku nak orang yang boleh bimbing aku bukan aku yang kena bimbing orang tu.

Maka di sebabkan itu la aku susah nak terima orang sebabnye ape aku nak cari ni impossible. Jadi jangan tanye kenape kalau aku jadi andartu. HAHA. Joking. Tapi serious kalau asyik jumpe yang sama je perangai tak leh jadi gak kan? Balik2 kaki club. Minum. Amik drugs. Perosak. Player. Bile ade yang baik hati pulak tak bekenan ade je menda yang menghalang. So di sini aku menyatakan aku tak memilih. Janji perangai elok, ade mase depan cerah, tau agama, ade chemistry itu dah cukup untuk aku.

LATER~

Thursday, February 17, 2011

valentines day

I had lotsa fun with all of my friends. We went to Delicious, Bangsar Village. Its was 10 of us. Well the original idea was actually doing a bbq like we did last year. But then we decided to change it and go out for dinner instead. Thank you so much to all my part time lovers for a great day. Who needs BF/GF when you have an awesome friends like them? Im so blessed to found all of you.
Later~

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Attach

Reason why I hate attachments is bcz once you're used to be with that person in terms of constantly texting and call or whatever you'll feel the attachments. Once that person decided to walk out of your life you'll feel lonely as though part of you have gone. Its not that you missed that person only the company. It feels really sucks to be ditched. Especially when you used to be closed and something happened that you're not that close anymore.


And what sucks the most is to fake every smile and laughter infront of that person you missed the most. It does hurts but there is no used to keeps linger 'em in your memory. Wise man once told me that to have something perfect you have to feel the pain the bitter in life. So I kept telling myself just to go with the flow. If it ain't happening then just wait until the right time comes. Insyaallah.


For time being I'm indeed still afraid of attachments and love. I'm scared of that devastated feelings that might gonna leave a huge scar in part of my life. So I refuse to be flirty and just keep calm although I may showed that I am all flirty deep inside I'm not. There's something inside of me that kept holding me back from just to let loose. If I do I will get hurt bad. What I did was building walls and walls and walls. When the right time comes it will falls down. Hopefully.

LATER~

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