Attach

Reason why I hate attachments is bcz once you're used to be with that person in terms of constantly texting and call or whatever you'll feel the attachments. Once that person decided to walk out of your life you'll feel lonely as though part of you have gone. Its not that you missed that person only the company. It feels really sucks to be ditched. Especially when you used to be closed and something happened that you're not that close anymore.


And what sucks the most is to fake every smile and laughter infront of that person you missed the most. It does hurts but there is no used to keeps linger 'em in your memory. Wise man once told me that to have something perfect you have to feel the pain the bitter in life. So I kept telling myself just to go with the flow. If it ain't happening then just wait until the right time comes. Insyaallah.


For time being I'm indeed still afraid of attachments and love. I'm scared of that devastated feelings that might gonna leave a huge scar in part of my life. So I refuse to be flirty and just keep calm although I may showed that I am all flirty deep inside I'm not. There's something inside of me that kept holding me back from just to let loose. If I do I will get hurt bad. What I did was building walls and walls and walls. When the right time comes it will falls down. Hopefully.

LATER~

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