My family

This is how my raya has been. I've been so blessed for having them as my friends. God knows how much I love them for always being there for me and always makes me happy when I'm in my worst position. Thanks ya'll for being the best friends in my life. HUGS and KISSES.

LATER~

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I'm trying so hard no to let this sorrow getting to me but who am I kidding right? I'm a human being I can't control every single thing not even my emotions.

So lately I've been posting severals status and tweets about being depressed and I said its about my assignments. Its all a lie. A cover for not losing my cool and fake a smile.

I'm used to it. I'm used of faking a smile or laugh than explain why I'm sad.

Seriously I don't know how to explain it. Its not that I've been avoiding of telling the truth but for me I think there's things better left unsaid. Its better to keep the mystery unfold. Well obviously its about emotions and no its has nothing got to do with the same douche.

When it comes to emotions it will related to the typical uncontrollable feelings you may or not have towards someone. In this case yes I admit it I have slightly a tiny bit crushed on someone. At first it was a wonderful steps everything was going well right after that it fumbled and now it breaks me.

Just when you thought this is the time for you to be happy after that dreadful downfall your thoughts were wrong it hits you pretty bad. I don't tell anyone because maybe its an ego thing to admit that you've been defeated again twice in a year. I don't do well with being defeated because I'm a competitive person.

To admit that you're losing is the hardest thing in the world and to show how weak you are in front of people is the most difficult part. Probably that's why I've been hiding it for this while. I mean the feelings.

Luckily this time I was aware of it that it doesn't affecting me that bad and I wasn't that attached with him so its easier for me to walk away from what ever is happening between us. Now seriously I have to stay focus with my studies otherwise the same thing will happen to me like last semester.

I did pretty bad with all of my assignments and exams because of a moron and I've become an idiot for letting it to get me. This time around I've vowed not to make the same mistakes I did. I'm much wiser now (hope so).

I learned that the more you letting it go to fly away to find its own path and pace of life the more naturally it will get to you. I've learned that you need to be faithful and stop being so hard on yourself and just live your life the fullest.

I'm hoping that everything will turn out okay.

LATER~

Okay its official my life is doomed! I've been so busy with my classes right now. On weekend I'm working and thank god I decided to quit by this end of the month. Phew. Its enough. I need my own quality time though.

So what should I write to update myself? Well its pretty much the same routine though. Morning till late noon I'll have a class. Then at night is time for me to finish up my assignments.

No sir. No scandals or potential lover this time. I've given up on love.

This semester its been so hectic prolly because I'm taking 6 subjects and my other friends are taking 5. Its unfair I know. Story of my life.

Oh for those who are following my tweet probably knows that I'm having some drama in my class. Well it the normal "We're a team but only few did the work" drama.

This bunch of "lovely" people didn't bother to even do the blady work and only and my friend are doing it. She's editing all the shitty news and I'm posting it on the wordpress. Then later in class they claimed that they did all the work. How messed up right? after awhile we all get along pretty fine for sake of wanting to get the A for this subject. Although I know each of them are faking it.

Like I care anymore isn't it? If you wants to act so childish go ahead its none of my business. I just don't understand these people are jeopardizing their marks just to keep their ego high. Dude come on grow up. Be professional will ya?

After all the weeks of writing news I'm actually getting used of writing it but i struggled alot man. Hell lot I tell you. How can you write a hard news when your passion is about fashion? Don't let me start with the assignments. Goshh its killing me alive. I need to write an essay about politics how awesome is that when you don't even know about anything.

Its like a blind man trying to cross the road without anyone helping him. I'm so lost. But what the heck right? and really think I should stop whining. haha. Well that's all about me I think. Will try to update more later.

LATER~