well yeah i know i've been single for quite a while now.guess what?there's a few guys who confessed to me that they loves me and want me to be their GF.i was like.what the hell dude?u barely know me and yet u want me?do u know what is my likes and dislikes?im sure u dont.get to know me first then only decide whether u want me or not.im not desparate ok?never was and never will.im sure that i'm not interested for any relationship right now.why?cause dah serik dah.i mean its easy for me to know that person but its hard for people to know me.ok i know im sort of mysterious and kind of hide some of my feelings and that i dont really open up that much of me to people.it'll take years to know who the real me.yes i am complicated and that's why i hate complicated things.for me relationship is complicated.why?cause its such a nuisance ok?well at first u have to try to win his heart.then u have to be as good as u can so that he'll stay with u.then u have be faithful.then u have to listen to him.then u'll have this stupid feelings of jealousy dan sama waktu dengannya.then when nothing seems to be right u have to leave him and just wasted ur freaking years.oh god love is so complicated huh?
ok recently i just found out that i cant seem to get outta my mind of this certain person.this fellar keeps on popping in my mind.everytime i talk with a friend i'll try to selitkan nama beliau but ofcourse i didnt.geez i'll be so busted for it if i do.haha.i dont know why this person seems to be the only person who i'll think of every single minutes.but i'm afraid.im afraid that this person is my bounce up guy cause i've been single for 3 month je.its too early for to fall for a guy right?darn.im so confused.sometimes i feel like just telling him straight that "i have feelings for u damn ass!".but maybe this feelings will fade away who knows?and i bet that he doesnt feels the same way.darn darn darn.i swear to god that this feelings hurts me so bad.i so dont wanna have a crush or feeling to any guy anymore.im afraid i'll get hurt.
and yes friends i know my facebook status said that i miss someone and i miss this person so bad.i dont know i miss him so bad!damn it!feelings feelings please go away.i aint wanna get hurt anymore.i dont want to move on anymore.im so not ready for a new relationship.sigh.god why are u doing this to me?why do i have to meet him?why must he pops in my life?
why im interested to him?gosh we've got so many things in common.seriously.he's also sort of my type of guy.ok u can shut up now friends!we like the same car.we have a preety same attitude.there's a chemistry between us and sparks of course.haha.oh boy u really had blown my mind.but i'm afraid.i'm afraid cause he's actually one of my friend.im afraid to lose him if he knows how i feel.sigh.that's why i kept on saying that love is complicated!gahhh.i hate this feelings.hate it hate it.
now if he doesnt reply my text or didnt even bother to text me(when i dont) like he used to i'll be so freaking insecure and start to think that he really2 dont have the same feeling like i do.ok ok i know.psycho!!!what a freak right?but atleast im not an obsessive stalker ok?(you know who you are)damn im so into him arent i?i really should start focus my mind on something else now.i really need a job and start guy-opping.hahaha.to get this dude outta my mind.maybe the reason why i dont have any feelings to flirt anyone is cause of him kot?sigh.
LATER~
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