its been 3 days

yes its been 3 days that im stuck at home. im sick and so tired. mybe because of the weather and i havent been drinking a lot of mineral water. but im feeling better now. i had a stupid idea of entering the amazing race asia. when i read the requirements it really broke my heart. cause im not yet 21. sigh. btw, there's nothing much happen today. it was as always a boring gloomy and humid day. N tagged me a few picture's of the oscars. see actually we have this obsession of fashion. i dont know why but we are indeed obsessed with what celebrity wears on the red carpet. have you seen the oscars red carpet? im so in love with rachel mcadams dress. it is like something u've seen on your favourite store yes but it is so unique and the pastels colours and how flowy the dress is.it really caught my eyes. and then i love miley cyrus's hair colour. its sort of reddish and really suits her perfectly.i wish i can colour my again though.why cant i?cause i made a promise with my mom that i would not dye my hair again. yes a promise is a promise people.

so anyways, R texted me just now and he sound like "merajok" cause i didnt text him at all. cute right?i know. LOL. i think he just needs to calm down cause im not his girl and we dont have any label yet and i dont think it will happen. im so not in the mood for relationship right now. i just want to be free and i need my lone time.if you get what i mean. its not because of the age comparison or something but i think he really have to get to know me first. and to the other guy who "berangan" want to tackle me please get to know me first. dont rush into things. its not that im picky or anything. its just that i really need to be sure that this next person im with is the RIGHT ONE. im not getting any younger and i dont have time to be playing around. so maybe i'll be single for quite a long time after this. and F your statement yesterday about "perempuan susah nak single sebab kalau single pun dorg perlukan teman". im so not like that ok? im independent and i dont depend on anyone. only at a certain circumstances that i need my family and friends with me. im used to be alone. im used of being "INDIVIDUAL". that's just who L is. im weird, complicated, hard to please, individual and fussy. if you cant handle me then its not my problem.

anyhow, last evening i received a phone call. there's this dude called me and offered me to join this one program under government for a fresh grads who dont have any jobs yet. he said we'll be training for 2 months and get an allowance rm300 per months and after 2 months they'll put us in a big company such as air asia, shell and so on. there's an interview for me and Ra this monday. wish us luck ok? besides that, im trying my luck to apply a position in media prima as broadcast journalist. i hope i'll get it though. i mean dapat call back for interview should be enough for me.i cant stand for another rejection though. i really need to brush up my english. its getting really rusty. thats why im posting in english now. so that im prepared to speak in english during the interview. haha. that's all from me now.LATER~