seriously i want him but i dont think i stand a chance to. he seems to be quite avoiding me. maybe he dont want to gimme the wrong message like last time so he's been backing off. i can see it. so i have to avoid him too. i just dont want to be that obvious that i want him. i mean i just want to know his answer but i think i've got the message and answer already. yeah its hard. and it hurt cause he doesnt seems to have a ball to tell me the truth. well i'll wait for him as long as i can wait. maybe 4 months top. yeah this things is complicated and like i said i hate anything complicated.i'll get fed up.
then someone admitted to me that he wants me but i cant accept him in my life yet though. maybe as friend its ok but more than that i cant. im not like that.once i like someone i'll like 'em only.darn why am i like that?tak nak dah pisang berbuah 2 kali.i tried to accept someone that i dont even have a feelings on them and it doesnt work out. at the end i'll ended up getting bored.i should focus my self on something right now.to get him out of my mind.
usually when he's around i'll be happy and excited or something but now i'll be like "why the hell is he here?".nampak sangat la tak berape ngam macam dulu.buat bodo je.sigh.lelaki kan?keep playing games and at the end perempuan who'll get hurt.im not that fragile but he managed to make me.its like my heart had been torn apart into pieces if u know what i mean.i hope i'll find something or someone good.yelah tibe tibe sekarang ni rase nak moody bile dengan kawan2 happy semacam but at one point bile terfikir balik pasal ni terus jadi muram.why must i fall for you?i knew that its gonna be rough.sigh.should have warn my self not to get my self into this mess.not again.not ever.
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