no one

no one listen,
no one understands,
no one cares,
no one to rely on.

can't think straight,
too emotional,
everything seems to be wrong,
i blame myself for this.

am i that complicated?
am i really that arrogant?
am i really that ego?
am i such a bad person?

do i deserve to be treated this way?
is this what a punishment means?
is this how u want to teach me a lesson for?
do you think this is what's best for me?

taking away my social life i wouldnt mind,
but taking away my friends from me is a pain,
i'll have no one to talk to after this,
i'll have no one to rely on.

yes its true that they may have be a good and bad influence in me,
and they may not give me any money or a place to live,
but they have certainly gave me their love and attention.
something that you never even bother to give me.

dont blame me for not opening up,
you've made me this way,
you said i was too young,
after this while i was respecting you're decision.

im getting used with putting a boundries around us,
that's why i've been so quiet,
that's why i've been keeping so many secrets,
that's why im not comfortable with you.

you think that im arrogant snobbish?
i've tried to talk,
i've tried to start a conversation,
but i just cant.

this is just who i am,
im not someone who talks a lot,
im not that approacble either,
this is just who i am.

you should've know,
you been living with me for 21 years,
you see me every single day,
and i think you dont even try to get to know me.