something

my days are gloomy,
i'm a mess,
constantly tired,
is this a symptom of a depression?

am i depressed?
does losing appetite make me depressed?
does locking my self in my room make me depressed?
is starving my self make me depressed?

what is depression anyway?
any definition?
does it have any obvious symptoms?
is it harmful?

im down,
im ashamed,
im lonely,
im angry.

i feel like a pathetic loser,
i feel like i'm useless,
i feel like a moron,
i feel like running away.

i dont know why i'm so angry,
i dont know why nothing seems to be right,
i dont know why my self esteem is going down under,
i dont know why i'm ashamed for.

do i have problem?
do i need to seek for any help?
is this bad?
im so confused.(sigh)