i've never told anyone about you. i mean being straight forward of who you are. i told one of my close friend about you. dont think she have any clue of who you are. okay here's the thing. i like you because u made me fall for you. i think you might have noticed it because i did gave an obvious clue here and there. im the type that will gonna be straight forward to tell anyone she like that she likes them. im different because i have a huge ego. and i wont be showing you how much i fall for you unless you're super hot or anything. HAHA. joking. seriously im losing my mind right now when ure used to so close to me i dont really feel what im feeling right now. you said ure busy with work and forget to text me but its a good think cause u called me once an awhile to catch up on me.
idk i think ure talking bullshit to me. cause ive heard of it before so many times its because he have so many options before me and he got nothing to lose. he's just checking on me to see whether i like him back but im not giving him that obvious response so he'll choose other girl instead. or he's just a creep who loves playing this kind of game to make girls fall for them because they love the attention and the catch so much. i know! guys are pretty sick sometimes. so watch out girls. should i wait till the real thing reveals or i just should forget about him? sigh.
i forgot to mention while i was busy trying to figure out things about me and him my ex's came back to me saying that they want me back in their life. how shitty is that? just what i needed to make me calm. YEAY. seriously they never stop. kept asking me out and stuff. and others are just being so wrong. dude please i need a companion not a pervert in my life. im not that kind and never will be. i need someone real someone who is different. someone who can respect me for who i am. someone that can listen and compromise. im not that desperate to find a companion dude. i know its been kinda long since i've got into a relationship. but no this time its not a relationship its just an open relationship not a serious 1 though. yes i am afraid. afraid of rejection and feeling hurt. ive been hurt quite a lot and im not face that shit again and again. i may look tough on the outside but inside im vulnerable. im weak.
no one understand what ive been going through. they think its just a small matter that i should keeps on trying. dude its hard because it involve my heart and my feelings. i hate being sad. i hate feeling frustrated. im sorry for posting emo shit all over again but i cant help it. be my guess and unfollow my blog idgad! and stalkers yes this is my so called "DIARY" i can write what ever i want here damn it. its up to you how to judge me. and to YOU i wish you can read my mind of how much i missed you and needs you so bad. LATER~
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