Final is almost over. I'm gonna finish my semester (Thank god).
What am I up to? Nothing much though really nothing is going on I think I've become more and more boring than I used to.
There's of course a boy problem. Always and forever. But I'm just going to ignore it though.
Sometimes I feel I rather be alone than fill myself with this mixed feelings and uncertainty.
I envy those who can find love as simple and easy as it seems but for me its going to be hard.
I ain't whining but really some people can find their replacement for less than a month or so it has been 2 years for me and still haven't find anyone I can be with.
Douchebag? Tell me about it. I've been seeing the same douchebag on and on again till I'm sick of 'em and decided to keep my head on focusing with my studies.
This is the legit prove of me being boring cause in my head there's only study concerns and nothing else.
Idk, I'm not saying that I've given up but prolly at this moment I lose hope. Afraid of getting an attachment and finally ended up with a tears and broken heart.
Maybe in 2 or 3 years time I'll find someone decent but I don't think its that easy to find a decent guy anymore right now. I'm speculating or stereotyping but its just that most of the guys I knew now or previously is nothing but a jerk. Sorry guys but this is fact.
I know that nowadays girls are turning to be one these doucebag but where do you think they got that idea from? Just saying.
Love and feelings its unpredictable. When you find one when you feel one it will come unannounced. I have to control or what so ever on it. But its up to me to explore it or just ignore it. For now I'm in the middle.
Hesitating of whether or not I should explore my feelings or I should just completely ignore it.
Sounds harsh and selfish but its for my own sake. My feelings. I can't afford of facing the same situation again though. It hurts.
Unless until I find someone who can prove to me that they are different and change my believe in falling in love and that they are deserving then I'm sure I will be in love again.
As for now its better for me to learn to love myself like no one else can.
What am I up to? Nothing much though really nothing is going on I think I've become more and more boring than I used to.
There's of course a boy problem. Always and forever. But I'm just going to ignore it though.
Sometimes I feel I rather be alone than fill myself with this mixed feelings and uncertainty.
I envy those who can find love as simple and easy as it seems but for me its going to be hard.
I ain't whining but really some people can find their replacement for less than a month or so it has been 2 years for me and still haven't find anyone I can be with.
Douchebag? Tell me about it. I've been seeing the same douchebag on and on again till I'm sick of 'em and decided to keep my head on focusing with my studies.
This is the legit prove of me being boring cause in my head there's only study concerns and nothing else.
Idk, I'm not saying that I've given up but prolly at this moment I lose hope. Afraid of getting an attachment and finally ended up with a tears and broken heart.
Maybe in 2 or 3 years time I'll find someone decent but I don't think its that easy to find a decent guy anymore right now. I'm speculating or stereotyping but its just that most of the guys I knew now or previously is nothing but a jerk. Sorry guys but this is fact.
I know that nowadays girls are turning to be one these doucebag but where do you think they got that idea from? Just saying.
Love and feelings its unpredictable. When you find one when you feel one it will come unannounced. I have to control or what so ever on it. But its up to me to explore it or just ignore it. For now I'm in the middle.
Hesitating of whether or not I should explore my feelings or I should just completely ignore it.
Sounds harsh and selfish but its for my own sake. My feelings. I can't afford of facing the same situation again though. It hurts.
Unless until I find someone who can prove to me that they are different and change my believe in falling in love and that they are deserving then I'm sure I will be in love again.
As for now its better for me to learn to love myself like no one else can.
LATER~
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