wow

I didnt know saying sorry could be this easy. i should really push aside my ego.i dreamed about something so weird lately.yesterday i dreamed about my ex BFF.i havent seen them around.maybe its a sign for me to apologize to them also.soon.i need to get use to this at 1st.

lately i've been so tired.im turning 21 soon and theres this dude at this particular restaurant called me "PUAN".i was like hello cant you see that im wearing this super2 ripped off jeans?im too young to get married darn it!i felt so insulted.gahhh.im so mad.do i really look that old?-__-

i really need to quit this job before i end up looking like a grandma next aye?

guess what?i know this dudes both of 'em are pretty okay though.one of 'em is chinese and soon to be pilot.kinda cute too.but he's sort of like me.not very good in communicating.boring.awkward.another one is cute.malay.working.and older.i can see this malay dude is trying his hardest to please me.he text.he call.im not used to this though.ya know texting.then getting scolded if i didnt reply his text.reminded me of someone.

i understand that he wants to show how much he cares but im not buying it.idk why?i always have this thoughts at the 1st stage guys will always show how concern they are.they'll text they'll call kalau boleh every single minutes.right after the next stage (dah couple/almost) they'll be ignoring you and then starts to neglect u or even dont contact with you anymore.so yeah i really hate this stupid phases.i keeps on going on and on and on.so dudes thats why i look or act as if i dont give a damn cz i hate getting attached with someone at the end i'll hurt.sick of it.

all of sudden i remember mama always reminds me.to find a right guy u need to get to know them 1st.dont rush to things.networking is the key to find or to get to know someone.friend with 'em 1st and then evaluate.the most important is they're sincere and religious.oh and also got a job so that i have a bright future.this is what my mama told me.but obviously im not thinking about my "FUTURE" yet.i just want to get to know some people 1st.not a boyfie nor a part time lover.only a friend or a close friend would be enough.excluding friend with benefit aye?till then LATER~