judge

I think its human nature for actually judge someone based on their appearance. "DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER". This quote is often use when you realized that you've already judging them by their cover. Frankly, I'm one of them.

I can't deny it cause its normal. You see someone with weird clothing or with slutty clothing you'll have this thoughts that she's a slut. But when it happens to myself I really am pissed.

Who are they to judge who I am before knowing my story? Even if you're my friend you don't know my real story. What I've been going through. I don't want sympathy. I don't need attention. I am who I am.

Everyone have their own story who made who they are today. I may look strong or perhaps stuck up but deep inside I can be very vulnerable. I may be smiling over your jokes but deep inside its killing me and brakes me to pieces.

What I really hate about this matter is people always have the same impression of who I am. They always told me that I'm arrogant, stuck up, snobbish, spoiled brat, party animal, play girl, and so on. Like seriously people! Stop making your stupid assumption of who I am. I don't talk to you doesn't make me arrogant its because I'm socially awkward. I'm so awkward and its hard for me to find something to talk about.

Then just because I wear this and that doesn't makes me a spoiled brat. I have a crazy controlling family. I don't always get what I want. I work hard to get what I want for instance my blackberry. Took me hell of a month to get it. My parents don't give a special treatment like anyone else parents gave. I don't have my own car and I'm turning 22 soon. What's so spoiled about that? Shocking right?

I'm not a party animal because I don't go out at night. I have curfews. Even my girlfriends who wears hijab can go out at night. So yeah I don't go to club. I don't even listen to trance music and whatever genre it is in club. I'm not a player. If I am I would be having more than 20 ex right now and I'm still single and still am afraid of commitments. I'm loyal to the only one I fall for.

I'm sick of all the assumptions. I hate it to be called this and that. If you don't know my story stop making it up. And yes I am boring. I do have a plain normal boring life that is so no thrilling about but this is just who I am. I am plain boring. I am normal. I am ordinary. I am a plain Jane. If you think that you can't cope with my "boringness" i suggest you to leave the hell out of me. To those who thinks that there's more about me that they want to know are welcome to stay.

Seriously I can't afford another stupid drama in my life. Enough is enough. We're all a grown ups now. Use you brain to think wisely and stop acting like a child. Be mature act mature. There's so many beautiful things you can find about someone once you get to know them. That's what makes them special and unique of who they are. LATER~