At last he ended it. He said he wasn't ready for a commitment. There are few things that I'm disappointed about. It was kinda bullshit. I feel like slapping him for telling me that statement. Its too personal to write it here.
So it only lasted for 6 months. I admit it I was definitely heart broken. You don't know how shattered my heart it. Seriously I'm still broken until today.
The next day he text me and he acted as if nothing happened. I left my hardisk to him so i wanted to get it back. When i met him he was being all okay as if nothing ever happened. I was totally annoyed by it. It was awkward for me.
A few days after my friend told me he made a status "she falls she waits she's dying im thinking i decided im missing im dying". Maybe he wants me to know that he's dying also. But boohoo dude. You left me.
The pain that I'm facing is much more worse than you're feeling. Eveyone kept asking what's wrong with me. Everyone realized that me and you have drifted apart. Do you how hard it is for me to fake a smile by saying that we're okay?
Do you know how ashamed I am to admit that you left? I was stupid for having so much faith on you. I thought when you told me you feel the same way you actually did. Sigh. Indeed honey I am dying!
I don't know how to react infront of you if I've found out you've found my replacement. I dont know. Its hard for me. Its hurting me. Its tearing me up.
No worries I'm done crying. I'm done grieving over him. I've moved on.
I know how on the surface I've showed that I'm strong. Nothing can ever brings me down. I'm only human. I have feelings. I'm vulnerable. It does tears me apart. Ofcourse I'm frustrated as hell.
Idk how to lose all of the memories. In 6 months we did a lot together. He's been with me 24/7 imagine how much of pain and loss i felt when he left? Its as if apart of me is missing. Im so used of having him around and now he's gone.
I can't find him and tell him everything like how it used to. I have my pride. I have my ego. I won't lose it eventhough I need him so much. I know eventually I'll forget him or probably puts him into the museum of those you used to be the world to me.
I have to continue with my life. People said if you're meant to be you'll find away to get back no matter what the hurdles are. So if its not happening now maybe it will later. But I'm not putting my hopes high. Truthfully, I'm done. I'm too exhausted with this shit.
Im done going round in the same circles. Im done seeing the same douche. Im sick and tired of everything. No more love thang for me in atleast 6 months from now. I'm too broken to accept anyone.
Although his presence still lingers here I know I will slowly move on with my life and forget him completely. Insyaallah. Amin
LATER~
So it only lasted for 6 months. I admit it I was definitely heart broken. You don't know how shattered my heart it. Seriously I'm still broken until today.
The next day he text me and he acted as if nothing happened. I left my hardisk to him so i wanted to get it back. When i met him he was being all okay as if nothing ever happened. I was totally annoyed by it. It was awkward for me.
A few days after my friend told me he made a status "she falls she waits she's dying im thinking i decided im missing im dying". Maybe he wants me to know that he's dying also. But boohoo dude. You left me.
The pain that I'm facing is much more worse than you're feeling. Eveyone kept asking what's wrong with me. Everyone realized that me and you have drifted apart. Do you how hard it is for me to fake a smile by saying that we're okay?
Do you know how ashamed I am to admit that you left? I was stupid for having so much faith on you. I thought when you told me you feel the same way you actually did. Sigh. Indeed honey I am dying!
I don't know how to react infront of you if I've found out you've found my replacement. I dont know. Its hard for me. Its hurting me. Its tearing me up.
No worries I'm done crying. I'm done grieving over him. I've moved on.
I know how on the surface I've showed that I'm strong. Nothing can ever brings me down. I'm only human. I have feelings. I'm vulnerable. It does tears me apart. Ofcourse I'm frustrated as hell.
Idk how to lose all of the memories. In 6 months we did a lot together. He's been with me 24/7 imagine how much of pain and loss i felt when he left? Its as if apart of me is missing. Im so used of having him around and now he's gone.
I can't find him and tell him everything like how it used to. I have my pride. I have my ego. I won't lose it eventhough I need him so much. I know eventually I'll forget him or probably puts him into the museum of those you used to be the world to me.
I have to continue with my life. People said if you're meant to be you'll find away to get back no matter what the hurdles are. So if its not happening now maybe it will later. But I'm not putting my hopes high. Truthfully, I'm done. I'm too exhausted with this shit.
Im done going round in the same circles. Im done seeing the same douche. Im sick and tired of everything. No more love thang for me in atleast 6 months from now. I'm too broken to accept anyone.
Although his presence still lingers here I know I will slowly move on with my life and forget him completely. Insyaallah. Amin
LATER~
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