dont know why

i dont know why but rase kepala ni berkecamuk sangat.macam banyak je beban and banyak je masalah nak dipikirkan padahal tak ada masalah pun.neutral je rase nye sekarang ni.maybe cause of friends problems kot?tu yang jadi lagi serabut otak ni.sorang dengan masalah dia macam ni.sorang dengan kes dia macam ni.sorang dengan kerja dia macam ni.sorang dengan perangai dia macam ni.serabut pulak tibe2 rase diri ni.seriously i need a time out.

but bile dorang carik aku nak cerita ape semua aku jadi tak sampai hati pulak nak cakap "im sorry but im not in the mood".aku kept on digesting semua problems dorang.bile balik rumah balik2 di persalahkan sebab terlalu mementingkan kawan2 dari family.padahal aku duduk rumah bukan ade function pun kan?balik2 bangun pukul 3 petang.online sampai 4 5 pagi.main phone pe semua.itu pun cakap aku nak pentingkan membe aku?kalau aku tak tahu what is going on dekat rumah macam mane aku nak amik tahu?mulut ade cakap jela whats up?tell me what should i do?tahu aku jenis tak bergaul suke buat hal sendiri cakap jela kat aku.ape masalahnye?tak payah la nak kept on blaming me cakap buat rumah macam hotel.suke2 hati nak keluar and balik.i have my own life too.

tak kan la nak dok terperuk kat rumah je?beruk pun leh mati kutu la kalau asik duduk dalam rumah dia.pe kan lagi aku ni manusia yang memang perlukan orang untuk berinteraksi.you expect me to be responsible and understand you but please do understand me 1st.im 21 for god sake.im not a child anymore.if you grounded me pun i can let my self out.do treat me like an adult.i know im the youngest and seorang perempuan.but i dont deserve to be treated this way.im an adult now and i can handle it.you dont have to shout at me or anything.i can take care of myself.yes i know there's a lot of cases nowadays and you want prevent me from anything bad to happen.but please.do not expect anything negative.doa kan jela aku tak ape2.kawan2 ade boleh jage.chill la.

im sick and tired of hearing the same thing."your the youngest".so what if im the youngest?you cant treat me like i have no brain to think what's good and what's bad.and you dont have to watch over me 24/7.i understand how protective all of you are.but come on.dont you know how annoying it is to me?you expect me to be independent but yet you're doing this to me.its like you're treating a 6 year old girl.im 21 and im a women.im not a little girl anymore.i can stand by my own.its just too much.and i hate attention.rimas sgt2.why must i sacrifice my dreams to further my study at oversea?why cant you support me?back me up and tell me that i should go for it.i cant believe that you're saying i'm being selfish for leaving everyone just to achieve my dreams.i know im just a mass communication student.mmg la course ni tak segempak engineering,account and business but still its my dreams and i know my dad can afford to pay the expenses.what a dream crasher.thank you for not believe in me.im so ripped out right now.

you know sometimes i wonder why i even born in this world.nothing is fair.nothing is easy.nothing is possible.macam tak ade function langsung.orang kate ade ke tak de ke tak ade bezanye la.mungkin mmg aku ni wujud jadi kuli orang je kot?hanta pergi sana.teman pegi sini.drive sana sini.habiskan duit sana sini.buang mase itu ini.tak pernah penting pun.hanya sekadar seorang hamba abdi je.penat la hidup macam ni.semua orang nak take advantage.baik la jadi loner kalau macam ni.bile nak ye2 cari.arah2 aku buat itu ini.bile tak nak buat bodo macam tak ade gune langsung.betol2 macam kuli batak.terima kasih la anda semua.suke sangat bile kena macam ni.pandai2 la korang nak hidup lepas ni.aku dah penat dah nak melayan kerenah semua orang.kerenah aku tak ade pulak orang nak layan.baru ajak jalan sikit dah merungut.tak pe la aku sedar diri aku siapa.tak pernah penting.

LATER~