whatcha say?

to be frank i have a serious issue in commitments. i dont know why but i'm just afraid of it. i'm loyal and all but to be committed with someone and focus on him is a hell for me. i mean i did that before and i feel like tearing my self into pieces. yes it was so bad. i dont know i'm just too comfortable hanging around with my friends now. last time i was not. it was so hard i tell you. i cant even talk about my secrets cause he was always there whenever me and friends lepak.

i hate it when that person will eventually get jealous of something stupid. i dont want to get into this shit anymore. then i have to share my password with him so that he thinks im not gonna cheat on him cause he'll gonna check all my notification first before i did. then he'll start gonna tell me who i can be friends with and who i cant. hate it hate it. hate all this couple things. i mean why must i do all that? thats why im gonna be remaining single for quite a while.

until i found someone who is just like me. who wants freedom couldnt care less who is cool and sporting all the time. i mean as long as we know our limit that we're in a relationship then its cool. no cheating and all. kalau keluar bagitau. that is all im asking. nothing much actually. so if you're gonna say that im too picky and stuff go ahead honey. cause this is my life remember? i choose what i want and no one can force me. btw, i thought i've already found someone who is sort of just like what i've mention just now but he turns out to be worst than me. commitment issue 101. or maybe i was not hot enough for him. idk! oh well life must go on right? there's no need to be wasting time waiting for someone who you barely knows how they feel.

but its super hard to start from scratch i mean you know the process of getting to know that someone. cause i've always been having a high expectation in people. thats why i've been too picky. i mean i want this next relationship to be the coolest one. penat la nak couple break couple break ni. and once again i want a MAN not a BOY. i'm independent and strict so if you think you can handle show me. dont waste my time with all this needy clingy childish immature rubbish ok?i've had enough of it.so thats all from me now.i'd better get ready or i'll get a yell from R.she's on her way.wheee.LATER~