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Funny how things are really complicated.especially when it comes to feelings.whats odd is when you really want something you won't get it.i remember listening to this forum before by saying that maybe Allah gave us all of this because Allah wants us to be grateful and to be thankful of what you have and what you've been given.so that you can't always get get what you want.same goes with the issue with you want someone to be with you so bad but nothing seems to be working and the simplest things can turn out to be the most complicated.you think that you might have a shot on someone that seems to have an easy life but actually he's more complicated than other douche you've met.so its true then, the simplest things can turn out to be the hardest things to get.

like what i'm dealing right now.i always thought that if i choose someone who is not that close of a player it'll be easy for me to get him and perhaps nothing will come between us.im so dead wrong.it turns out that this type of guys are actually the most complicated living creature.now that i know what he's dealing and he's fear then only i realize that nothing can be easy.and really no matter how much u tried u might not get what u want.just when u're dealing with this feelings matter someone came into ur life and creates a drama and new environment.its obvious how different someone can be.some people can really come in too strong with their feelings and no matter how hurt they've been before they'll never give on finding someone to share the companion some people can be as hell as their past.its so hard for them to move on and that certain past kept hunting them to move on with their life.

i'll always end up with choosing the one that love me more than i love him.sometimes i dont even feel the same way but i'm giving him the chance to prove me wrong.i thought it was a wrong move but actually it didn't even though we didn't last forever but he was actually the longest of all.so perhaps its already written that i'll never get who i wants but someone who really2 care for me and love me more than i do really can make me happy.i just have to learn to like and love them the way they are.i think so.but my theory could be wrong though.and no i haven't given up yet.i'm still doing my best to win his heart.if takes me months i don't mind.i want to be satisfy with my decision for once.i want to be happy with my own choices.my mum always tells me to always fight for what you believe in.so i believe in this.regardless of how tragic it'll be.i'll fight and will try to win his heart.prove to him why i'm different than that those other whore.if someone else can see how different i am than others why can't he?nuff said.my decision is final i'm going to fight for him until there's no more reason for me to be happy anymore.okay now i sound so pathetic but who cares.LATER~